No One Home..

No One Home.., originally uploaded by cinemaone.

On my way back from Christmas at the fam-fam's, dysfunctional as it may be, and this picture pretty much sums it up.
The connection, the intent, the nuts and bolts, the biology are all there. Except something. One thing, tiny as it may be is not plugged in. Instead I have a family that is not connected, is not a family.

Christmas was stressful. I was not my usual bundle of unbridled fun, that I have been often called, instead, I was a little bit emo and distracted. Conversations were trying and convoluted. Emotionally I felt zero ups or downs. Just cold. My family is aging. Poor health seems to be the fruit of the season.

And I leave them. All of them. To come back to the bay. Where I am mostly anonymous. Mostly friendless. My true love is here and I am lonely. When I am with her, it is like delicious cake. But instead of using each other as a crutch, we take precious time apart. This time apart, I don't know what to do. A little bit aimless, restless, and fatigued as I plop over the bar into 2007.

Things are definitely looking up, though, with school, with work, with living with my honey. Change is in the air, maybe I'm just reluctant. Maybe I'm just cold and this whispy bay air has gotten into my bones.

Wurd UP

Wurd UP, originally uploaded by cinemaone.

This is my main homie, Ryan R. He's a bro through and through. But he's my best friend. He's a good one to have in your corner, even though he might be the motherfucker that is pushing you into the middle of the ring. He has a lot of energy and has often showed himself capable of amazing acts of popeye strength. Good heart and all. I just might keep him around and see what happens.
He's getting married in October, 2007. Should be fancy and fun. It will be the first real wedding I will have attended of any friend. I hope to have a small one with a gorgeous buffet sometime. Gimme five years. I'm working on her right now.
This is not, NOT, his car. I would disown the rat bastard.

Portable CHurro-Mobile

Portable CHurro-Mobile, originally uploaded by cinemaone.

This is the best thing ever.
I've talked about this forever, now I've got proof.
What this is, is a churro making machine that you can push around. The Steering Wheel in the upper right squeezes sweet sweet churro dough out into the bubbling vat of oil. The man extracts it out with a thong, rubs it around some brown crystallized sugar, and give you about ten pieces for ONE DOLLAR.
TIJUANA MAKES ME HAPPY.

one hour old graduate

one hour old graduate, originally uploaded by ayahthetiger.

This is my beauty star girlfriend. The title says it all. I stole it off her blog. She makes me really happy, and I'm proud of the fact that we go so much education between us. But the best thing we got is street smarts. Of which, we have an abundancy.
We are kind of awesome and super hot for each other. Coming up on 4 months together and she really is all a boy could ever want. Especially around Xmas time. She loves it, I love it, our cat loves it!!
Thanks Canada, for exporting your loveliest!!

darkie mcdarkieton

darkie mcdarkieton, originally uploaded by cinemaone.

I took this photo and photoshopped it for a bit. This is what happens wwhen I have too much free time. I also wrote and made a belated birthday card for my very, very special dearie.